Ramblings at 3 AM

I sit in the loneliness of yet another night that drags on seeming never to end. As My eyes can once again not find the rest that eludes the very being of a caged animal. I wonder why I am not running the free wild of the world but instead I sit facing the dim light of My screen in the darkness of the night. Memories long since that I have tried to forget years ago find rest again in the for front of a weary and embattled soldiers mind. I try to convince Myself that the path I have chosen is the right one to follow. yet here I sit not rest and alone. I wish for the free spaces that I once used to curse at. I see the hollowness that is civilization, the emptiness that this life that we live and wish for the old ways. How do we live now? We say we are better and we tell our self that we have progress to the brink of what our minds could take us too. Yet it is empty. Grown men act like ignorant boys. Years have changed the people I know to where I don't even know them. Lofty are our plans to civilize ourselves that we have forgotten what is life and what it takes to be alive. Gone are the ways of honesty and loyalty.

So here it is that ravings of a man lost in the nonsense of his own mind. pictures that never fade and good times that are long past. Is this life? Is this what we live for? WHY? Where is the higher cause?