My thoughts

The month is December and as we near the end of yet another year emotions and memories come flowing back. In a few weeks we will once again remember the birth of Jesus Christ. This will be a time were we should gather around those we love and spend the hours basking the warmth that is family. As this time nears I draw on the memories of nine Christmas spent alone. From the chilly coasts of Japan to the burning hot deserts of Iraq and Afghanistan, these memories come crashing in one me. I write this in tears and heart break for the current conditions that we find our country, families and our own lives in. We should be thankful people for what we have. I have stood in amongst the broken bodies of our own brothers and the bones of mass graves of people that have been forgotten. So often we spend the time and do not tell our family, friends and coworkers how we really feel about them. The reality of it all knocks me almost breathless, this will end people and how will those we deal with on a daily bases remember us. So to those I consider my family I love you. Mom and Dad I truly feel from the bottom of my heart that God could not have given me too two better people, thank you for all your love, help and sacrifice thru out the years. To my brothers, Julio we fight and it can get nasty at times but I love you and will always be here for you. Ben you are closer to me then any man has ever been, I love you and thank you for standing with me on a daily bases. Finally to the woman I love, Sarah during this time of the year I have many things to be thankful for but none greater then having you in my life. You have truly completed and made me into a person I can be proud of and have shown me a true reason to be happy and to live for tomorrow. I love you with every fiber of my being and I miss you so much sometimes I want to beat my head against a wall.

To my friends, Candy, Brandon and Amber way too much fun we have spent together I am truly thankful for your friendships. Tyler you have a good friend and a loyal one. I am grateful I got to know you, and looking forward to seeing this friendship grow over the next few years. Nathan we have not been able to spend as much time together as I would have liked but I hope to see that change man.

I am tired of pushing my self threw life always worried about how I am coming across to people. We push and we pull, we scheme and we plan and to what does it avail us. Should we stop doing these things no, and all you people out there might never get along with me or we might never see eye to eye on certain matters. However, there are people in this world that do not even have that. I am grateful for what I have and for what I don’t have. We live in the greatest country in the world, with the greatest families and friends in the world. I ask you, what do we have to complain about? I say we all, and yes that is me included, need to lift our head up high look the people we love in the face and tell them word for word how we feel about them. Let us not hope that that mother or wife, son or daughter, brother or sister, friend or enemy know how we feel. Take out the doubt and tell them to their face. They might know but it will do them a whole lot of good to hear the words. I post this now to FaceBook and to my blog hoping that we can all take this time to look inward and find the true meaning of life. Starting with Me.